The school year is in its final throes. Amazing how it careened by. I refuse to do what I normally do, look back with sadness or guilt at all the mistakes I made, feel like a failure, obsess over what I will do next year. Next year will take care of itself. At least that's one positive about CScope. It takes away all pressure of creating a curriculum and lesson plans.
If it hadn't been for the great students I had this year, I think I would have had a mental breakdown. I was close on a few occasions. Not that all my students were amazing - but here in the final yards of the year, even they aren't really terrible. I can laugh at their antics like I should have been doing all year. I think I even got over the frustration of their not working. Makes it easier on me to grade.
I think I might even try to get over the need to fix them.
I think next year I might just relax. I thought about becoming super-bitch, but that's not me. No doubt I will be super-bitchy at times. I hope, though, that I can corral this fibro a little this summer so I won't be so worn out next year. Being exhausted during 2nd period is not helpful.
It helped not watching Freedom Writers this year. I don't feel the need to compete or to change the world. Or maybe I'm losing my will to change the world. Whatever.
Ambivalence reigns. :)
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