life script

no reason to fight. something liberating about it. move on and write my life. not bound by past mistakes. i'm free to make my own path. freedom somehow is a necessity for me. i can't be bound by parameters or expectations. i draw my own path, straying or following or resting. not worried anymore. accepting. i am water. flowing. i am wave in water. eternal. i am moving constantly changing constantly strengthening deepening peacepeacepeace. i am searching, lapping new shores, tasting new soil, seeing new and glorious light.

i love the way the sun slanted this evening...golden and basking and glorious. the slant of autumn. the glow of tinted leaves flittering to the ground in sparkles, the crowning, saturating colors of change. the berries orange in dripping clusters. the clouds swollen and swift and bearing warmth along the wind. the light creeps away to rest. winter is not death, winter is rest and dreaming. winter is the sleep of the year and we mistake rest with her sister death. but death is only rest and reincorporation. death is life eternal, death is the chance to be everything at once split into atoms and elements scattered to the winds. death is only the pause between the breaths. death is nothing to fear.

i am not worried. i am not afraid. i am, of course, far from death's embrace, but even here i do not tremble. no, my soul or my flesh will continue to breathe and pause, continue to crest and sink like the waves. i am water i am air and earth and fire and spirit i am goddess incarnate or the spark of her kiss to the earth. i am sister and lover and mother and daughter. i am free and wild and wind-swept. i am ashes in the river, ashes in the wind. i am tears and tumbling laughter. i am the moon full radiance in my eyes. i am falcon. i am empty. i am peace.

i breathe. i feel. i open myself. i feel the light within expand and course my veins and set alight my eyelids. i feel my soul expand within. I become all that ever is. i see the petals drift down stream i feel the wind. i am alive. eternally.